Wednesday, October 31, 2007

With so many things going online, I half expect people in the future to do everything online.
Recently I heard, Tutoring went online too!!! Yes you heard right, now there's Online Tutoring!!

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Sunday, October 28, 2007

The Stepford Wives

Just caught The Stepford Wives on Channel 5.

Been wanting to catch the moive, finally caught it on tv just now. =)

I think Nicole Kidman looks damn cute.

What do you think? Which one's cuter?

Friday, October 26, 2007


To : Nemesis, +~*hUi sh@n*~+, Nonnie King, Donny the passerby, Ah BeR bElInDa, Samantha, Kyla & Jas..

Thanks for the comments and support.
I didn't expect all of you to "turn up" and leave me such positive comments.


Haven the slightest clue on how to reply to all your comments 1-1. So I'm replying as a whole to all of you. Hope you all don't mind ah... :p

Those who know me long enough, would know that I seldom tell them when I fight with Mike (defector), or what we fight about. It's easy for everyone to assume that we never fight or scream at each other, or slam door, or shout at each other in pubic, or even walk away.

So it took me quite a long while to type out that entry. Many hours were spent because I cannot afford to give the wrong idea out to anyone. It's quite scary really. It took me many days to think over if I should blog it out.

When the entry got too long, I had to add in "spices" or what some of you call it "funny/lame stuffs", because I don't want this entry to be just another boring whining session. I want it to be in my blog for a long long time.. I want to see it when I'm no longer young, and then I can laugh at myself.

By the way, Mike wants me to tell you all that we're slowly recovering, and thanks for all your support.

So I was saying.. this "episode" really woke me up.

I realise I still don't know what LOVE is.
Do I love him? Am I sticking to him because I'm too used to him? or Do I love him, only because he loves me???

Does forgiving = Love?
Does understanding = Love?
Does caring = Love?
Does sacrificing = Love?
Does having sex = making love?
Does supporting = Love?
Does trusting = Love?

I'm curious. I want to know what love is.
Do I love myself?
Could love be lost over time?

It's stupid. because after so many years I suddenly ask something like this.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

If only I wasn't this young. (3rd party)

Dearest baby,
Thought of what happened recently and felt really bad. Hurt the both of you at the same time. how smart right? (if you can't sense, yes it's sarcasm). I love you and yes to a certain extend I still like him. He's my "brother", you're my husband-to-be, what was I thinking???

You warned me not to let the cat out, unless I want all my friends/relatives/readers to leave me. But I feel really bad inside. Like something's punching my organs inside and it hurts (I've not really been punched before, so this is really just me trying to tell you I'm in pain, in a more "descriptive manner". *sticks out tongue*). When both of you "fight", I almost died from the pain. So many misunderstandings, so much pain later, I wish I wasn't this young.

We both knew how playful and curious I can be. None of us thought this would ever happen. I was just some “不起眼”person, no one even care to take a second glance at. He did and I fell for it. He's so much like you and I used him as your "sub" when you're not around. Thinking back, I felt super stupid and really hope I wasn't this young.

3years plus, wasn't short, why did I still do wrong? We talked about this about 2 years back, about how I thought I was still young. Now I'm 19 and I still feel young. I still feel like I've not seen the world yet. I told you I don't want you to go unless you want to. You replied with, you are willing to let go if only he befits me.

He's as old as you are (hee.. 27 very old to me lah. :p). Married and has a 2year old son. He's a fairy good example of “男人不坏女人不爱”. Honestly I don't know why I did what I did. I know I'm more than just curious, I was crazy! even had thoughts of wanting to be with him and then keeping a diary so that I can write a "special" blog. But that didn't work out of cause.

I knew I couldn't keep anything from you. In fact I'm such a lousy secret-keeper. I told you everything, hoping that you'll scold me or leave me to die. At least I would have felt loads better. but you never did. You took short breaks and always talk to me so nicely.

If only I wasn't this young, I wouldn't have let him play with my feelings. You really didn't have to make me happy everytime he made me feel sad. Like I told you, I've found treasure, and that treasure is you. I've not seen anyone as gentle, caring and forgiving. By now, anyone reading my blog would have killed me if murder is not a crime.

Remember I kept telling you that he'll be gone soon. But why's October moving so bloody slowly??? Knowing that he "lied" to me, makes me super sad. I didn't even have to say anything and you knew I'm sad. You came by to shower me with loads of love and I'm loving every single moment of it. You explain my feelings, sounds kinda funny, but yes you actually know why I felt certain ways without me saying much. Sometimes I think you're really amazing.
(Wait, correction, you are always that amazing to me.)

I told you the other day, if I followed my heart and not my head, I would have died. Honestly, both of you told me to use my heart, but my heart no brain how to think? (-.-")

*okie, this is the shitty part, half of this entire blog post suddenly disappeared!! Since I'm trying to rewrite, the bottom halve might not flow that well already..*

Anyway, I know this blog post is super duper long. But I can't hold it anymore. I just have to blog it out. I feel damn stuffy inside, not being able to tell anyone, anything. But I know no mater how hard I try to explain, they wouldn't get me. No one, except you, understands me.

You know I always cry over tiny stuffs. I've become "dry" lately. I cry without tears leh! Interesting right? hahas. The girls hear me *sniffs* but seeing no/little tears, they think I'm alright. My heart is crying very loudly lah, but only you can hear from all the way in the west.

I can't wait for him to leave and never ever come back again. But my heart secretly still wants to see him. Sounds kinda stupid, I know. Like what I've told you, because of him, I actually wanted to avoid going to work. But my head (the brain) asked me, is it worth it? Plus, not everything is going well at work, things kept coming in, a number of files just cannot be found, RI have not been touched, closing is this Friday, too many cartons in the office and the girls kept hinting that they don't want to have lunch with me. argh.

I've already made up my mind about not contacting him after he leaves, but both of you think I can't do it. (why do you both agree on these kinds of stuffs?? -.-) We shall see, humph.

My God, I think I could have written a mini essay already. This post could easily be the longest most personal blog post on It doesn't even matter, if after reading, everyone leaves me, avoids me, scolds me, throw rotten eggs at me (I'm not suggesting that lah!) or whatever. What matters most is, Will you still love me, even though I'm such a bitch I've made a grave mistake?

I want to record this down because I want to read back, a few years later and laugh at how stupid I am. If people want to leave comments, they are welcomed. I don't normally moderate comments, unless it's spam lah.

Next post will be a "history".

I've written a really long letter for the next post =).

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Even though I use email more frequntly now, I still have to open my mailbox everyday to check for any mails. My mailbox looks like the flat I'm staying in. and I thought it looks really funny.

In other countries, their mailboxes look like this:

Photo taken from

I couldn't believe it when someone told me that there's even a website selling mailboxes! sells high quality mailboxes. Not only do they sell residential mailboxes, they also sell commercial mailboxes!

They have more than 1500 mailbox and curbside decor products for sale! so cool right?
In Singapore, my mailbox looks the same as my neighbour's. So totally boring..

I looked thru the site and found many adorable mailboxes I might get if I ever move somewhere else and get to choose my own mailbox.
Here are my top 3 choices..

1. Good Directions Steamer Trunk Copper Mailboxes
Don't you think it looks like a treasure chest?

2. HouseArt DaVinci Post Mount Mailboxes

3. Coronado Mailboxes with Polished Brass Accents and Locking Option
I think it's super cute! and I really like the locking option ;)

Sunday, October 21, 2007

New hair colour

New hair, new top. Friday night wasn't as simple as before.

I suddenly miss my bangs. Just went for a "trim" and yikes, Ben kor kor seemed to chopped off quite a bit. Now I don't dare to take photo until it grows out again.

*Chicky can't stand it anymore, went to dig her boxes for her hair pins*

My maid says I look like Wendy. (also known as XX)
So what do you think of my hair? Chio a not?

Saturday, October 20, 2007

have you read this?

Recently so much has happen and yet I cannot blog about it.
I know some of you who have already read some stuffs on defector's blog and think you know everything.

I can't comment much now. I can't even whine, grumble or whatsoever about it now.
I promise. I'll disclose more when I'm ready to.
Currently I cannot say much.
Those who saw the change in me, I hope it's for the better.

Nope, the hair colour was just a small change.

I'm so sorry for so little entries the past 2weeks.. I really cannot type too much here le..
Till I'm ready...


Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Sunday, October 14, 2007

just came back from chalet.


I felt so bad for messing things up, I tried to keep my cool...
Guess I can only say I'm really sorry. I hope you had fun cause I really did. Just that sometimes things happens and I just... We'll go out again soon k?

Sha Da Jie.

PS: By the way , I have no idea why I can't read your blog. It's been the same problem since a few weeks ago. :P

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Security Blanket

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Omg it's Friday already!!!

I really need rest.
It's never ever enough.

This past week's kinda messy.
Sometimes I regret things I say.
I feel misunderstood and it hurts. Especially when it's someone whose opinion you cared.
but what the heck, if my boyfriend says it's okay with him, who the hell are you to say it's not? b****.
I'm sorry, getting kinda agitated. Someone just step on my tail.
Somehow my life has tuned upside down once again. no thanks to myself lah.

I need the learn to think before I speak.

Life is a rollarcoaster.

Monday, October 8, 2007

Happy Birthday D...

I know you work really hard.
I know you love us, but don't know how to show it.
I know you don't mean to hurt us sometimes.
I know you're afraid that we'll all leave you one day.

I hope to give you a great life, but I could hardly manage mine.
I want to make you happy, but I really don't know how.
I know my grades don't make you feel proud, but I'll try if I ever get the chance again.
I can't promise you that I'll stay by you forever, but I'll visit if I ever marry.

I wish I brought you more joy the pass 19years.
I wish I never gave you trouble or pain.
I wish I could understand you more.
I wish we could turn back time.

Daddy, it's your 49th Birthday, and I want you to be happy forever.

Your silly daughter,

Sunday, October 7, 2007

How to make Miso Soup

First, you walk into any 7-11 shop and purchase the flavour you like, I choose tofu.

Then, make sure the cup is clean.

Before you pour in the packet of soup "powder".

Add hot water. (Please get an adult to assist if you're under 12 -uglyfatchick shall not be responsible if you scald your hand and in fact any other part of your body or any other person's body.)

After you've add in desired amount of water, take a spoon and stir the mixture.
(Please be careful and stir slowly, lest you get scalded -uglyfatchick shall not be responsible)

When you see all the tofu floating up, it's ready to drink.
(Please drink the soup with care as it's still hot.)

The entry is brought to you by chef uglyfatchick.

Friday, October 5, 2007

Festive Season 2007 (Last Quarter)

There's Hari Raya then there's Deepavali (Festival of Lights), and then there's Christmas!

Christmas is the time that I spend the most money.
Yes, on Christmas presents!

Have you started planing on what gifts to get for your relatives and friends?
I've 3 brothers at home, which makes it very troublesome for me.

If only I stayed in the US, then I would be able to use all the free shipping and discount online coupons to help me save lots money.

If I could, I would buy the most amazing gift for my family members.
For my mum, I would get some cosmetics, using benefit cosmetics coupon I would get Free Shipping on orders over $65.

For my brothers, I would get them each a pair of shoes using NIKE coupons, I would get Free Shipping on orders over $175 or more.

For my dad, I could get him the stop smoking aids from drugstore using coupon, And I can save Up to 50% off on stop smoking aids.

For my one and only Defector, I could get him something nice from the apple store.
Apple deals : Free Shipping on All items in Apple Store's Gift Guide and also Free laser engraving on iPod.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

I feel so bad.

Someone at work is leaving and I feel a little sad. I've known him for a really short period of time. and I've only worked with him for like 2weeks? don't worry, he's a really old man. like 45 or something. I feel the need to clear this a little in case someone gets jealous. Bleah. :p

So why do I feel bad?
Not because he's leaving for someplace better of cause.


I deleted 3/4 of this entry, because I feel really bad. I mean I don't really know if the person I've blogged about reads my blog too. maybe when I don't have to face the person anymore, or when I can confirm that person wouldn't make my job living hell first.


And to Mr MD,
I hope that you get a better job, not that this one's bad. hahas. but you understand what I mean right? So if you ever read this entry.. Don't forget all of us here, okay? :)

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Not easy being a regular's gf/SO/wife!!!

There are people telling me that they are envious of me.
All because I have a army officer boyfriend.

They think working as an officer is easy peasy.
They think he can takes lots of leaves and offs, just to meet me.
They think he only works 9-6, 5days a week.

Of cause that's what people says yah?

Did you know..
My poor defector works 7days a week sometimes?
He works from 6am to 9pm on most weekdays.
I only meet my boyfriend once a week, twice if we're lucky.
When he has to go overseas, it's weeks before I get to see him.
Even on weekends, if he's suddenly being called back to work, he has to leave me and fly back to camp.

Of cause these are only some of the heartaches I've to endure for the past 3years.
And then of cos there are also funny people who makes me wanna laugh. I've acquitances who told me that they cannot live without seeing their other halves, 2days in a row. -.-

Anyway, last Sunday, Defector was supposed to bring me out to shop. We were on our way out, when he received a message. He had to fly back to camp, leaving me to take cab home myself. I really wanna go shopping, k-boxing, pool-ing, bowling, neoprint-ing, chalet-ing, and have fun lah!

Where are the k-box sessions everyone said they wanna have? And the shopping trips? time for me to prepare Christmas presents le! argh. I think I'm sick until mad le. =P

Monday, October 1, 2007

Sometimes I wake up grumpy...

Here are some info on Hotels in Vienna & Hotels in Berlin.

If those words on the websites appears a little different, please be assured there's nothing wrong with your computer. The 2 links provide above are mere translated versions.

So for English...Here are Hotels in Berlin & Hotels in Vienna . :)

Honestly, I don't travel much. But I love to compare places and hope that one day I'll be able to go further than just Sentosa.

I've heard about Berlin and their legendary Checkpoint Charlie border crossing also known as the "Haus am Checkpoint Charlie" Museum. It's an exhibition on the history of the Berlin Wall and the partition of the city. They even have original "historic" items used in underground, overground and even airborne attempts to flee East Germany.

And I've also heard that Austria has all the four seasons (Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter)! And each of them have their typical temperature and climatic characters! I want to experience other seasons! Singapore only has Summer. :(

It's so hard if I really had to choose between Berlin and Vienna.

Where would you rather take a trip down to?