Love/Hate CNY

Loves

• lots of food
• lots of shopping
• new clothes!
• angpows
• family dinner
• spring clean (fun)

Hates

• feeling depressed cause I've no achievement
• growing fat after eating too much
• spending too much
• new clothes don't fit (too loose/long/tight)
• spring clean (tiring)
• seeing relatives

I hate this stupid feeling I always get during CNY.
Like I've not done anything in my life.
I see ex classmates doing uni and I'm still waiting to apply for poly.
I see people my age doing things they want to do, moving forward and I still feel like I'm stuck somewhere.
I hate hate hate hate this feeling like I've been left out.
I hate to feel like I'm alone.
I hate to be jammed here.
I hate this feeling of useless and totally no sense of achievement.
I hate my blog design.
I hate the feeling that I've no friends.
I hate my Internet.
I hate my slow computer.
I hate that person who caused me so much misery and pain.
I hate falling sick.
I hate feeling depressed.
I hate losing.
I hate having not enough sleep because I cannot fall asleep at night.
I hate waking up feeling like shit.
I hate my face.
I hate my body.
I hate being bullied.
I hate being blamed.
I hate people saying that I'm defensive like I'm in the wrong.
I hate having no blog readers.
I hate feeling broke.
I hate feeling confused.
I hate not being about to do anything.
I hate doing nothing.
I hate when things just keep going the wrong way.
I hate when things don't go my way.

ARGH..
Feeling frustrated.